A Waterfall of Emotions and 'The Classic' Movie

       It's really good to release your feelings once in a while, especially when you're really sad. You don't have to get mad and curse just to feel better and let your emotions out. You can simply find a good private spot and let your tears fix everything. I'm a girl, so I guess these moments happens more often to us than guys. But I hardly cry, and when I do, it's usually the sum of everything that happened that reaches all the way since last month.
        I can't cry if I can't find the right emotion to do so. Sometimes I just stare and feel empty, but I can't cry. So whenever I really feel like doing a session, I listen to this.

More Love More/More Than Love/ If We're In Love by Han Sung Min
http://www.4shared.com/mp3/wGVyu08c/Ost_The_Classic_-_More_Love_Mo.htm

         It's one of the sweetest yet saddest songs I've ever heard. It's Korean, from the movie, The Classic. I suggest you watch the movie before you listen, so you'll fully understand the melody of the song. But the song has an instrumental version, and you can listen to it and have a glimpse of the beautiful melody.

The Classic OST (Instrumental)
http://www.4shared.com/mp3/KORklxqO/Ost_The_Classic.htm

            Everytime I play it, it's so beautiful that I am so drawn to my emotions.

         It's early in the morning, yet I'm playing the song, bawling my eyes out. For someone who's very optimistic as I am, my sadness does a double take. I could cry for intervals the entire day, until I empty myself out.

Parallelism: Life=Love? [Romantic Love]

               For a person who's never been in a relationship since she was born, I can attest to this: There is so much more to life than finding a boyfriend or a lifetime partner. In short: There is more to life than romantic love.
               Don't mistake me, though. I have been in love. My first took me about 2 years to get over. And through that experience, I have learned so much. I've laughed so much and I've cried so much. But life goes on, and we'll always have ourselves and our Loving Father up above.


I've searched a bit about this topic and I saw what people had to say about this: Is there more to life than love?
Here are some answers:


"if love is peace and self-worth then no, there is no more to life than that. but if love you mean looking for a person to be with you there is more to life than that. life is living with yourself, it should be enjoyed :)"


"Love doesn't necessarily have to be found within a person, if that is what you're saying. Love can be found within simple things: traveling, a hobby, art, religion, or life itself. Life shouldn't be spent looking for Love, but letting Love find you."


"There's many aspects of life yes, but when everything comes down to the big picture it is love we look for. What's many people goals, to have a career they love or to start a family one day which both of these are based off love. Some people aren't as fortunate and may not be able to do or afford the things they want to do so therefore have a negative perspective on life and love. But if you could have no limits and do everything you wanted, it would all be based on love. Whether is be the car you really want or to go somewhere you really want to go, it's all based off what you love in your dreams to happen. So yeah there's tons of more things out there in life, you don't always have to grow up looking for your soulmate to start a family with, that's the typical route to choose but some people can be much happier just focusing on a career or being alone in life. In generalization though, when it comes down to it love is what we all seek in the end."


          In this post, I am referring to romantic love. It saddens me to think that some people commit suicide because of love, specifically if the ones they love leave them. Life doesn't end when love does. This is not the definition of life.


         Love does hurt so much, and it can make you fall on your knees because of its pain. I've known some people with such extreme tendencies, and it just doesn't make sense to me of the things can do because of this pain caused by love. It disturbs me, because I believe those experiences can be overcome without drastic actions, no matter how it hurts.  


      The common pitfalls of romantic love is emotions. Sometimes, we allow our emotions to swallow us that we tend to forget common sense and sensibility. Emotions can also be destructive. It also causes us to hurt other people when angry. In love, it could be four times more than that.We tend to be blind when we are in love. Our emotions fuel our pain, and so we do things that don't seem good. That's why we should always keep our emotions in check.

“It is not because the truth is too difficult to see that we make mistakes... we make mistakes because the easiest and most comfortable course for us is to seek insight where it accords with our emotions - especially selfish ones.”
--  Alexander Solzhenitsyn quotes (Russian novelist, Nobel Prize for Literature)


“The sign of an intelligent people is their ability to control their emotions by the application of reason.” --Marya Mannes


           I believe that life is so much more than love. I am a content and happy person, I've always been. Who ever said I can't enjoy life if I don't have boyfriend? I find fulfillment and satisfaction of the many things I do by myself. Trips to the mall, eating by myself, saturday treats for myself, etc. I enjoy all these things and I hope to do so much more in the future. My family and my friends complete my day with their companionship and love. Do I need a boyfriend to feel secure and loved? Definitely not. I can find love in so many things. I want to travel by myself. I want to stay in a bookstore by myself in the whole afternoon. I can reflect more often when I am by myself.


         I find happiness in so many things. I look around me and see how perfectly life works. I lounge around in my room and feel how peaceful it is. 


         I will not deny that I sometimes feel lonely. Yes, I do have my friends, but as you grow older you'd think about what would it be like to have a boyfriend. I think about that I lot. But I'm not ready yet, and I can't rush love when it isn't your time yet. Remember, let love find you because it knows where you are and when you should have it. Romantic love is wonderful, but it is not parallel to life. Life doesn't end when the one you love leaves you. I think it's pretty pathetic to throw your life away when it happens. There is simply so much wonderful things to experience. There are more people around you who love you than your one boyfriend/girlfriend. 


          God forbid I should ever commit suicide if I happen to fall in love so deeply. I strive to keep my sensibility above all things. The only perfect love we could ever find is in Jesus and our Loving Father. He can give me so much more happiness than any human person ever could.


              Life goes on even after relationships end and couples break up. True strength is being able to withstand the great force of the wind, all the while bending in humility like the grass. We have to endure because it's all part of what we experience in life. We don't have to resort to drastic measures, or destroy our lives over one relationship that ended. We can't throw away the life we built for ourselves because of it.

We lived happily before we had relationships. Life continues even after that.

Blocking out the Sound of Rain

            I enjoy rainy days because the atmosphere is cool, and there are some great scenes to see and observe at times. I guess a lot of people like rain too, for different reasons. And some, well, maybe not. It prevents them from going out. Other than that, it's so nice to sleep on a rainy afternoon.

   

        But ironically though, I also dislike rain at the same time. I dislike the sound it makes when it drips on the roof and on surfaces. When it rains harder, I make a dash for my sound proof earphones. I put it on and I play music, or I simply wear them to drown out the sound of rain. I don't know why, but the sound kind makes me nervous, and a tad bit afraid.


           And no, this is not due to the trauma of typhoon Sendong. I have always been grateful that we were spared from that. I've always had this unease with rain way back. Even in the middle of sleep. When rain starts slapping through the windows, I put my pillows immediately over my ear.

Like right now. Oh yes, the atmosphere is relaxing. But just while before when rain fell on the rooftops, I grabbed by earphones in a second. But it isn't really a big deal though, I can quite deal with it. It rains a lot every year, especially when I'm at school.



 It's just something peculiar about me, though. :D
(The picture on the left is almost the same as how I feel, except the smoking part. *I have never smoked in my life, and I don't want to, okay?* )

*drip, drip, drip*

My earphones look like this,
only it's color is white.

Living the Sheltered Life

Living the suite life? No. Living the dream life? Not really. The Sheltered Life? Yes.

         As my mother and father were far from living the same life I'm having now during their childhood days, they both knew then what to do with their lives. All the hardships they went through was what motivated them to seek a better life in the future. My mother's story is one full of endurance and sacrifice, my father's story is one of hard work, perseverance and a solid vision.

        My mother didn't really grow up with a father, while my father had to work to support his studies, barely having able to take the final exam without the financial help of his teacher.

           I've been hearing these stories since I was a child, and I've always taken them to heart. My mother and father's stories are living proofs that there is always a way, no matter how difficult life can get. They want to instill the same values they learned to me and my sister. We can't curse life, and neither can we condemn it for whatever circumstances we get ourselves into. Everything we encounter is a challenge. Every difficult trials we face at a big part of our lives has its purpose.

           My life now is the vision my parents want for their family. Financially independent, comfortable, love, family-oriented and just enough to enjoy and afford life's pleasures. I've been educated in a private school, I've been able to go to places and take vacations, and my parents have been able to give most of the things I asked for. Same goes to my sister. Now she's working and independent, also living the life she wants for herself and for her future.

           I'd say my life has been wonderful. My parents get along so well, they really guided us and taught us what we needed to learn. My sister has also been equally wonderful and supportive. We're not that really rich, perhaps just enough to live comfortably.

           I know I have been sheltered throughout my life. My parents didn't want me to experience the same things they did before. They did what they could to give me the opportunities they couldn't have before. And because of this, I'll never entirely understand the difficulties that other people go through.

          MSU-IIT is a state university, and there are a lot of students who go there juggle their studies with financial issues. I've known a lot of people who have these problems, it is really sad. Whenever they are struggling, I think of my parents and all they've been through. I can't understand how they feel and what their thoughts are when they go through these problems. I don't know how they must feel so burdened, and how it must be so unbearable at times. I hope though, that no one will take me differently just because I'm not going through the same things they are.

            I'm really a quiet person, not saying much. But when it comes to serious things, sometimes I just can't stand not saying anything. I am a firm believer of better things to come, and I am really optimistic. To those who have their problems, especially my friends, I would lend so much of my time, my ears and give support. I may not really relate to what they're going through, but hopefully I want to give reassurance and encouragement(though I really hate ending up sounding like a know-it-all. : p ).

             I too, have my struggles. I too, have my disappointments, depressions, heartaches, sticky situations and seemingly unbearable problems. I too, have my moments of weakness. Don't think for one second that I have a problem-free life. We all go through difficulties, and no one is exempted fro them. Whatever I could give, I would. I think I'm good at listening. Whatever I can help with, I'd be glad to. :D


               At least for me who might be living the sheltered life, I would share so much of my happy thoughts, optimism and encouragement.

The Time of Waiting

          The best things/scenarios/moments entail the perfect timing. Sometimes, we have to to wait for them to be given at the right time. None too often we hear them say, 'haste makes waste'.

          We can't have it all. There are many reasons we can't have the things we want immediately, and sometimes we just have to yield to the fact that it can't be ours.... yet.

          As this is the era of instant noodles, people nowadays expect to get what they want immediately. The value of patience is lost. Far too often people insist on what they want, and then complain about the results they get. They get disappointed, and the cycle starts again. Take love, for example. People want to find love with the right guy so fast, they forget the things that really matter. True love entails maturity of the mind and heart, and the lack of it is most probably why people find themselves easily breaking up with their relationships. Love too, requires the right time, with the right person. There's no rushing into love, then expecting it to last forever. It's an ironic philosophy.

         It's true that we really need to grab all the opportunities we can get, but it's not the end of the world if we miss one. We may have reasons that we couldn't take them. But they will present themselves in the future, and we should be prepared when the it chooses to pass our way again. We also need to be wise in taking opportunities; not everything is worth the take. If we venture into an opportunity, we must be prepared for whatever it brings, and be ready to learn the lessons it has. In this world, there are a whole lot of opportunities, just waiting for us to discover them.

        Again, we have to learn to wait for the right things. At times, we are not yet ready to have them. In the future, better opportunities will present themselves to us. There's no use in crying over something you can't have. Acceptance is essential. When faced with tough situations, there will be nothing you can virtually do if you want something but can't have it. This is the real world; no longer about the lollipops you can easily buy at the store counter if you whine enough. We have to accept that it's not for us, at least not yet. We can work harder so we can be prepared for it when it comes again.

       Patience has always been one of my virtues, and it is really worth it. Things will craft themselves into something so much better with time. Then you'll see how lucky you are to have waited. Patience is the sacrifice that will entail flowers to bloom, and for plants to grow into sturdy trees. I do not mind so much about waiting. It can get discouraging at times, and tiring, but I believe it will be worth it. Yes, it can frustrating, but things might get really messy if I insist on having them.

       We can't force summer to come, nor the orchids to bloom-- they take time. That is the beauty in waiting. The future-- whatever great will happen makes it so much worth the wait.

Poetry for the Gloomy Day

Repost! This is what I made 2 years ago, when I just had a bad day. *oh, little me of 2 years ago* I feel so different now. :D

Nobody likes having bad days. You can't help but remember your stupidity in the situation. But I go through this a lot. And again, it takes an effort to get over it. It might dampen my spirits for a while, but hey, this isn't forever! ^___^ gotta stay positive(though its difficult).

When skies turn gray,

And pillows are punched,

I've nothing more to say,

I'm just simply crunched.

Have a little fit or two,

But still not okay,

I'd ball my fists too,

My feelings in quiet disarray.

Time for a break,

Take a slow, deep breath,

Control isn't a piece of cake,

Mind over matter, bury it all in depth.

I'd try finding my strength,

To stand up and do things right,

Dust off discouragement, walk farther at a length,

Leaving it all behind, so far out of sight.

I'd grasp a helping hand,

Two to divide the pain.

Life is simply grand,

With friends to throw troubles down the drain.

Frustrations come but it will pass,

It's all in the matter of handling it,

Take it in, learn the lessons it has,

Just get out of that sandy pit.

The Paper Doll Project

It all started with the very cute picture I found in Facebook.

Naruto: Let's raid the fridge.
-- What Happens to your Manga when you're not looking.

            Which inspired me to start my Paper Doll Project.
            I found it very fun to play around with paper doll characters and create imaginary scenes with them. Just like the scene above, there are endless possibilities with endless characters to choose from. Just thinking what I'm  going to do with them got me so excited!
            This is definitely a way to channel my creative streak!

The Daffy-Donald-Daisy Rivalry.

               I started with these. They're not that good yet, but I hope to improve in the future. With a little more detail, color and originality, I think I can nail it. For now, I came up with these.

Chowder in the Kitchen:

Chowder the kitchen companion... waiting for
the food, of course.

Nikki: Donnaaallddd!
Donald: *annoyed*

High Five!

Me: Oh Daffy, what am I going to do with you? xD

Playing around with Chowder, Daffy, Donald and Daisy.